You can spend your whole life buildin’
Something from nothin
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway
This worlds gone crazy
And it’s hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all YOUR heart
For all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away
love em anyway
God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway, yeah,
You can pour your soul out singin’
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway, yeah, yeah
I sing
I dream
I love anyway, yeah.
It’s really hard to take the high road… it’s hard to make the choice, when you KNOW that what you have thought about doing, or what you have done once and are being asked to consider doing again is wrong to you, to your heart, to everything… and be strong enough to say “no” to be who you really are… if we choose to ignore the chance to say no when we know we should… we pay, with our morality, with our ability to not feel ruined and used, with our ability to look in the mirror and not feel ashamed… I haven’t made all the right choices… none of us have, hell, mistakes are how we learn, and yet… if we make a mistake, recognize it as such, and then keep on doing it, it isn’t a mistake anymore, it’s a choice to do what we know we should never do or have done…
We can make the choices in life to resist the temptation to become someone else’s view of ourselves… we can be strong enough to say “no” i am not that person, i am not you, i am not willing to sacrifice who I am, what i believe is right simply to be accepted, to be part of a group or to have “friends.” If that’s what a person or group of people want from you, they aren’t, and never will be anyone worth keeping in your life for any reason.
Can you imagine what our lives would be like if we simply stopped believing and hoping things will get better simply because we have challenges to face… because this person didn’t have to go through what I did so poor me… how pathetic is that one? Make no mistake, I have been there, bitter and angry that people I know “deserve” to have their very lives, the facade of “nice” and “socially acceptable” they display in public stripped away and wish their true life was exposed to everyone… I can easily wish for the complete and total destruction of people who have regularly lied, and manipulated adults and children to their own ends… and still do, and are still given the benefit of anything beyond a glance to make sure they are as far away as possible…
But, that said, I, we, must remove as best we can the desire to attack those who treat us so poorly… do we give them trust, respect, quarter of any kind in our minds or in life… hell no, for no reason, we would be stupid to do so, but we can choose to continue even in the face of their nauseating existence, to be, yes, better than they are… to be above their way of “living” life …
I struggle with this, a lot… luckily I have the support and understanding of an incredible woman. In the last 2 years and change, we have helped each other through moments when we had to be reminded to not sink to the level of people who would hurt us, who had, who totally deserved to be completely shredded in every way possible, but we didn’t… we made the choice to not be like them, to not be insincere, to not be duplicitous, to not purport one life and live another… we decided to live our life, our lives, our love, our friendship together, for us, for our life together, for our kids, for our hearts and minds to know we weren’t faking it to make anyone else happy or comfortable…
The chance to live a life of hope, of passion, of friendship, of love… to have a person standing by your side who believes being real is vital to everything… I live a dream each day in so many ways… because of these things, because of her, because we both hoped and trusted after being given every reason to never do those again… we have us, we have this, we have happy ever after…
I sing, I dream, I love, anyway… no matter what…
